my post-baby body

I gained 37lbs while pregnant. I was 128lbs pre-preg and rocking 165lbs at delivery. Today at 6 months postpartum, I’m 132lbs. Even though I’m only 4lbs away from my previous weight, my body looks nothing like it used to. I have almost no waistline, my boobs, butt, and thighs are much bigger and jigglier, oh and I have stretchmarks everywhere. That stuff I can live with. The only thing that really bothers me is my testicle tummy. My belly was really big and stretched out, so now the skin is wrinkled and saggy, despite having a flat stomach. I hate this.


6 months postpartum belly - side

Looking pretty good from the side. (Lilu says hi.)


6 months postpartum belly - front
And testicle-y in front. :(

I hope this goes away before summer since I’ve never worn anything but a bikini.

cheap baby toys

My kid doesn’t have a whole bunch of toys. We have a few gifts from friends, a couple things we got her for Hanukkahristmas, and our collection of stuffed animals. You know what she likes to play with? Paper bags. Water bottles. Empty formula tubs. JCrew catalogs.




I have to watch her with the catalogs since she sliced her finger on a staple. Yeah freaking mom of the year right here. Whatever, she loved it.

baby led weaning vs. traditional feeding

My kid does both. When anyone over the age of 50 is around, we feed her oatmeal and purees with a spoon. She’s cool with it, mostly because she wants to play with the spoons.


Oatmeal is yummy

She only does it for the spoon


But when it’s just us at home, I hand her a piece of fruit to gnaw on.

Eating some apple

me and my baby

I don’t want to be one of those moms that’s never in her kid’s baby pictures!


I dig this gig!

That said, I prefer to have some makeup on.


Thanks for the cleavage Lilu!

And a really killer bra.

too close to home

Yesterday, one of the mothers on my August 2011 birth board lost her son. He was found blue in his daycare cradle. I don’t understand why things like this happen. I have been checking on Lilu incessantly, I can’t sleep, and I just cry thinking about this poor boy and his family.


Say a prayer for little Easton, and for his parents, Bridget and Ryan. I hope they are surrounded with enough love and support to somehow overcome their grief.


Here is a link to his donation fund.

now that she’s crawling

I realize what a bad mother I am. I had the itch to really cook something instead of popping in a Lean Cuisine or making a sandwich, so I plunked her into her bouncer. Normally I would just let her play in the living room, but she kept crawling into the kitchen, pulling up on me and fussing. 5 minutes into a pan of meat sauce, I noticed it was too quiet and went to check her. Poor kid was totally crashed out!


Crashed out in the bouncerMOMFAIL.


I didn’t realize she was exhausted. No wonder she was fussing! To be fair, everything I read said this crawling stuff wouldn’t happen until she was 7-10 months old, and she’s only 5 & 1/2 months. I don’t even know what to do with her. I guess she needs more naps now? And I need to finish babyproofing ASAP.

sleeping arrangements

I thought that Lilu would sleep in her crib in our room when she came home from the hospital. Unfortunately, I was unable to sleep for 7 straight days because I would jump up with every little coo and squeak she made. Plus she had spit up issues whenever we lay her flat after eating (which was around the clock at first). So we ended up putting her in the carseat of all places.


Hanging out

(I think she might be trying to flick me off.)


Then she slept in the Snugglenest. I felt better about that since it’s at least intended for sleeping.


Taking a nap with dad


Then she wanted movement, so we let her sleep in the swing. (A LOT.)





Then, finally, we put her in her little crib. She was such a peach.


Good morning sunshine!



And now, after only 3 months in her crib, she sleeps on her futon because that serenely swaddled baby above has become this little menace:


Evil Genius


She’s a swaddle-breaking, head-banging extraordinaire. But on her futon? She sleeps like this:



Perfectly Angelic.


Then when she wakes up, she is just happy as can be and crawls to her toys, playing with them until I go in to check on her.


Naptime is over!!

She loves it and it’s working great for us.


lilu’s nursery tour

Planning a nursery for your first child is pretty silly business. I know I fantasized about diapering her on the changing table and tucking her all swaddled in to the crib. I bust out laughing just thinking about it because here we are, just 6 months in, and I don’t use the changing pad, crib, or swaddles anymore. My little girl is growing up faster than I ever imagined. Thank goodness we are having more babies!


Here is a reminder of what we started with:

Nursery starting point


And here it is today, all tricked out:

Napping in the Nursery
Don’t mind Lilu, she’s just taking a nap.



Decorated shelves
Top shelf: Hamtaro Adam gave me in college, a book from my Children’s Lit class “How We Live In Tokyo”, Lilu’s goldfish wash poof from my sister-in-law, a polka-dotted toucan from Loren, a wooden frog rattle from Glen, and a pumpkin I brought back from Japan for Adam.

Bottom shelf: A piece of coral I filched from my father-in-law, a treasure chest I gave to my mother when I was young, a starfish Adam gave me in Tarpon Springs, a blue sake bottle, a conch shell that was my mother’s, a cute card I picked out when I first wanted a child, and a ceramic shell I painted in preschool.


Changing station
The diapering station has a cloth wipes warmer and other assorted booty booty. We used a picnic utensil organizer from Target to hold toiletries and nighttime cloth diapers. The flower is a battery votive I got as a gift in college, the shells were my mom’s collection, and the littlest jar holds beach glass I gathered in Bermuda. The party dress was a gift from our friend Ilylia all the way from Malaysia. It has the prettiest mother of pearl buttons up the back.



Mini Bloom crib
Her little crib.



Handmade Quilt
Her handmade quilt from my college friend, Lissa. One of the greatest treasure in the room!



Lilu on the futon
Uh-oh she’s up. Better hurry! The icebucket in the corner holds toys, the ottoman hides her humidifier, and the futon is great for playing, sleeping, and changing. (More on that later.)


Reading area
We put this little bookshelf in the closet because I know she will be a great reader like her mom and dad. All of these books were either gifts or from our own childhood bookshelves. The cloud box is something I used in my Japanese dorm and holds coloring supplies. My friend Sachi sent the cute kokeshi doll, the start of a fine collection since I think I will get her one every year. I love them. :)


Packed closet!
And of course, her packed little closet. I love the wood hangers. They keep her onesies much neater than the heap of sleepers we have in her drawers.


Well that’s it and I wouldn’t change a thing!